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forward me [18 Mar 2008|02:30pm] [ mood | contemplative ] i turn 22 in several days i get to play rainfest in may i get to do the have heart tour next moneth i get to mosh for blacklisted and bitter end and ceremony on friday i got a raise at work i had good sex last night i need to focus on school more i need to work less i need to write more music i am getting a robert banner tat very soon "beware the fury of a patient man"

1 step | forward [23 Oct 2007|06:03pm] whats the difference between justice and revenge? anxious, nervous, excited, and held in suspense for a conclusion i wish november 14th was here already "never stop making them pay"-worldbreaker. SMASH.

forward [12 Oct 2007|10:27pm] dare me to breathe when i can't catch my breath. sway my temper's balance.

2 step | forward [19 Sep 2007|04:05pm] im on issue 4 and the tension is fucking brutal! oh yeah and i will be leaving corpses for piece by piece this sunday! waiting to die!!!!!

1 step | forward [13 Aug 2007|09:31pm] so the past night ive been staying up late with carlos randy big mike and fubar all we do is talk about stupid shit our sex lives first time moshing fighting how shitty we are and dont care how people get on our nerves and with us four we still cant think of anything to do but sit and be idiots goodtimes currently waiting for the wife to come back to the country miss her like crazy she says there is a typhoon where she is at gnar but we will be getting burritos soon "walk a mile in my shoes then talk.... bleed how ive bled then try and walk" later days

forward [31 Jul 2007|09:35pm] sound and fury was amazing once again awesome bands sick mosh sick dives sick burritos! good friends met some new peeps then monday rolled to fresno that place sucks so hard saw have heart drove back got lazy im missing alot more but oh well beverly is leaving friday :'''[ so bummed im gonna miss her to death i love her. ps we record soon stoked! later days

forward [24 Jul 2007|09:43pm] SOUND AND FURY............. DELIVER ME.

1 step | forward [14 Jun 2007|10:58am] fuck. nothing short of amazing. so last wed i pick up the dudes from the airport. we eat burrtios. there jet lagging. thursday secret show in a garage. amazing. friday we get the van we drive to san diego soul control is such an amazing band keep an eye out for them next day day we go to disneyland for free wooo we only get on a few rides because we have to be at chain by 5 i have never staged dove so much in my life it was so full and words cant describe the feeling i got sunday soooooooooooo tired but we drove to san fran it was a good show i saw reesh and nip miss those dudes and then to the airport i had to say goodbye good friends and i met new people all this with beverly by my side makes me extremely happy that we have the same passion ilove her another have heart tour under my belt all in all kei was the best dude on the road i owe them more than they know later days sound and fury and a secret verse show who knows when and where this time later days

forward [05 Jun 2007|07:45pm] so schools out i get to chill works is done i need to gym 8 days a week now have heart weekend is gonna rule again beverly is awesome ive spent about 400 bucks on comics lately dont care wooo sound and fury get loaded like frank castle peace.

forward [01 May 2007|08:36pm] i forgot how much marvel was a part of my life read the CIVIL WAR mini series and just started the ultimate spider man series 108 issues im at issue 1 goodtimes cant wait for some eddie brock this saturday with bev cant wait for some optimus prime this july 4th cant wait for sound and fury again this year im excited for bevs prom theyll be alot of black people should be fun i love beverly i love crashing at her house i love no carb diets i love marvel and image “Almost everything you do will seem insignificant, but it is important that you do it” later days

2 step | forward [01 Apr 2007|11:00am] yesterday i turned 21 el tarasco with REESH nip and brit chilled with bev tatoo done by christina and eric i have never been tatooed i have never been tag teamed tatooed it hurt like a mother fucker :/ beverly was there to hold my hand all 2 1/2 hours te amo show we played a meh set black anus was really good randy danica beverly and i got way too full crashed at bevs i love her she takes care of me wooainee<3 later days

2 step | forward [27 Mar 2007|09:09pm] so 21 hmm not bad spine will be done ps this is all i do now www.filecabi.com later days

forward [22 Mar 2007|07:40pm] When the trumpets blare the loudest and cannons roar All the trains that once came for you Spill off the tracks floor All your horrors multiply And you realize your fears I'll block your ears with both of my hands Kiss away the tears

forward [13 Mar 2007|08:31pm] My fears hunt me down Capturing my memories The frontier of loss They try to escape across the street where Jesus stripped bare And raped the spirit he was supposed to nurture In the name of my In the name of my Born of a broken man But not a broken man Born of a broken man Never a broken man Like autumn leaves His sense fell from him An empty glass of himself Shattered somewhere within His thoughts like a hundred moths Trapped in a lampshade Somewhere within Their wings banging and burning On through endless nights Forever awake he lies shaking and starving Praying for someone to turn off the light Born of a broken man Never a broken man Born of a broken man But not a broken man My fears hunt me down Capturing my memories The frontier of loss They try to escape across the street where Jesus stripped bare And raped the spirit he was supposed to nurture In the name of my In the name of my Born of a broken man But not a broken man Born of a broken man Never a broken man

1 step | forward [06 Mar 2007|10:29pm] "you've talked your shit, you've had your fun and now you're gone, not even 21 DRUG FREE ADULT it doesn't mean shit till' you're 21" i get branded with pride

1 step | forward [26 Feb 2007|10:14pm] Spread the lies? I spread the truth that you don't want to hear... and from the very start, every word, and I was there. I fucking loved you and I fucking cared, so just remember, who turned their back. And where? I'm still right here. The same convictions. I'm still here. Sick of all this bullshit. I wanna know who's for real. Fuck me for calling you out. This is the way I feel. The edge is strong. WE WILL NOT COMPROMISE. The edge is strong. WE WILL NOT COMPROMISE. I could, I would, never lie to my roots. Never. STRAIGHT EDGE - I won't compromise. STRAIGHT EDGE - We won't compromise. STRAIGHT EDGE - Together. STRAIGHT EDGE - Forever. STRAIGHT EDGE - United. STRAIGHT EDGE - Represent.

forward [31 Jan 2007|08:37am] ive done more than 30 hours of work in just two day i need this weekend i need these moments i im so proud to feel this way still just like i first did when i was fifteen people come and go people say they care but people change and thats just them figuring their life out but me? "i will never run from where i stand, even if it means im standing here alone." every 20 minutes i treat it as if it was my last time so when i die i know that i conquered myself in that room... with just 3 chords.

forward [21 Jan 2007|12:40pm] "in this world , they choose to see me, they choose to see me like the setting son. SO its up to me, i have to see me like the rising one"

forward [07 Jan 2007|08:01pm] so friday work from 6am-10am picked up bev had a bagel went to mitch hung out went to bevs went to alpine chain cover slept and my neck was hurting but it was warm sturday came home hung out with bev and austin got spiros went ice skating got her shoes stolen then she stole two pairs of shoes :] went to my house took a nap "ungh ungh ungh ungh SNAP!.................BAHAHAHAHAHA" BROKE THE TOILET SEAT :] went golfing hung out house sitted shit was creepy slept in a comfy bad with a comfy girl im hungry but not really one more week to go<333

2 step | forward [28 Dec 2006|11:47pm] http://www.myspace.com/dawgpilehc get into it! so one year ago tomorrow i kissed her for the first time she was nervous so was i i love her<3 stoked for some PHO!

forward [12 Dec 2006|09:20pm] [ mood | discontent ] at first it was nice it wasnt bad kinda fun but im sick of watching the sun rise and watch it set all in the same van i see it as a waste of day goddamn it. we obsess over money we slave for it and for what so we just die and have only a bank account to remember us by not me. soon departure soon freedom just 20 minutes and the whole world is in our hands still got the feeling inside

1 step | forward [10 Dec 2006|05:25pm] [ mood | determined ] "hell is not a place you go if you not a christian its the failure of your lifes greatest ambitions" it was never the world, our friends, our families, our heros, our enemies that held us back

1 step | forward [05 Dec 2006|09:27pm] so i saw her but she couldnt really see me looking we drove she didnt seem too be lookin we had fun and then she seemed to talked we talked and didnt stop i like the part about the whore i saw her again but she didnt notice the certain look i gave she went home but i was eagerd to see her again there was something about that night and it was amazing it was her

1 step | forward [26 Nov 2006|09:18pm] november fucking awesome have heart trip was amazing it was good seeing everyone bev and i are flying out in feb to see the last guns up show good fucking times!!! sleep overs in my car are fun and wearing hello kitty pjs are fun too :P hmmm december its christmas time soon and i dont give a fuck hmmm did she figure out what and where she is getting it? not sure yet i realized she is better than anyone even me. ILOVEHER!!!!! JAN 1 YEAR!THE BEGINING OF A LIFE TIME! :] FEB GUNS UP HAVE HEART VERSE AND BOSTONBEVERLY HEHE well i cant think of anything to say but dogpile and one truth should be raging soon hopefully! later days!

2 step | forward [03 Nov 2006|03:18pm] rest in peace betrayed so next week is have heart 3 days in a row im stoked cuz the gf is goin the bf is goin and kalley the homegirl is goin should be fun i get to see the homies as well burrtios long drive beef jerky and sick shows i started a new job 10 to 14 hours a day its fucking brutal but i like it naked juice inc. so i love the beverly and in 12 days it will be are 10 month :] stoked!!! it seems like time just flys right by when your girlfriend can become your best friend she keeps me in check its a good thing people come and go people say they still care and that it means alot to them but then they never make the extra effort fuck that. as long as you gave an effort you did more than the rest blonde for beard and no not novembeard "born in a life with a bright future with every chance to excel but insted he took he fucking chances with the cheapest goddam thrills"

1 step | forward [15 Oct 2006|11:40am] so the reality of things is school is what i want and what i will do but its just a bit hard for me to get use to it. but in time i will embrace it and i know ill like it. when we look at ourselves do we see how other see us? if we were someone else would we be able to put up with ourselves? our habits our way of approaching things or issues would we get annoyed if someone did it as we do ? if we dont like it i dont see why we shouldnt change for our selves in the long run it would give us more pride in the person we are growing to be. i love her. and her letters :]. "im waiting for the misses" teamo!

2 step | forward [04 Sep 2006|10:45pm] soooooooo the end end of the summer now. the fall of a goliath of its own. i had an amazing time friends music my best frind/girlfriend.i realized my hoesty affects everyone. it makes things awkward and fucked up,but its the truth. people are just scared of whats in front of their eyes. i need to head out to boston and check it out .its all hype but it has good people.i prepair myself for school afriad but excited.ill conquer it.hmmm my music is lagging but i love it. lets get ready to grow up. i need hardcore and punk rock. i am straight edge. i am my own enemy and own hero. i am the reason i am. my truth hurts but i just want to help. i love beverly. i am grateful for julie and carlos. one year has gone and im still here. life wont brek me. im out.

1 step | forward [23 Aug 2006|01:30pm] my life is better then anyones. best weekend ever. :]

1 step | forward [16 Aug 2006|04:08pm] woooooooo chumorrow is goin to start and awesome weekend food gb reunion 2 nights in a row and HER!!!!!! month has been awesome i love her!!! 7 months and still strong!!! i was good seeing distant friends jd pat danny ryan cox and also meeting new dudes cant wait for the end of the year wooooo later days i love her to death!

1 step | forward [31 Jul 2006|02:07pm] weekend was FUCKING AMAZING three days of great bands three days of my AMAZING GIRLFRIEND GOOD PEOPLE GOOD TIMES miss everything already miss the weekend i miss her :[ i wish it was still here and now i feel like shit for some reason ugh "its so hard to think, its so hard to change when this world doesnt see you any other way in this world, they choose to see me, they choose to see me like a setting sun so its up to me, i have to see me, i have to see me like the rising one"

1 step | forward [11 Jul 2006|03:52pm] 6 people i trust moms austin beverly julie jesse carlos and im so happy to have them and those who i dont trust but still am friends with dont think i dont care cuz i do very much you prabably did something that made me question who you are maybe you changed but its not a bad thing i just have trouble accepting it i still care i still believe in you guys but when youre no longer the person i thought you were you cant blame me fo feeling this way change is never a bad thing its just not for me its been 6 months since me and bev have been together it feels like two weeks my best friend my girlfriend fuck how did i get this lucky my feelings only get stronger for her i love her cant wait where just half way there<333

1 step | forward [07 Jul 2006|11:42pm] week is wird it lacks beverly i need more of her um work workin out music and other stuff woooooooo six months i love her!!! \

1 step | forward [18 Jun 2006|08:56pm] sound and fury sink with cali IIII enough said oh yeah beverly lee owns your life. i love her.

1 step | forward [28 May 2006|12:59pm] so yeah my last enrty i can never seem to do things right.evereytime i open my mouth i fuck up. i hurt the ones i love.i have to learn how to stop all this. there are those who make you believe that there is more to people besides selfishness and greed. those that make you feel like you can trust. those you can be close to and have sooo much pride in. those that for some reason we keep hurting. and you dont know how or why. im not perfect i never was but i can do my best to not let those down. im a big fuck up. but thats ok ill learn. im sorry later days later days

2 step | forward [26 May 2006|12:39pm] you ever have that feeling like 1000 people are just hoping you die? yeah its kinda like that. :[

1 step | forward [17 May 2006|08:56pm] CHAMPION! ONE OF THE BANDS THAT MEANT THE MOST TO ME. I WILL BE THERE. "And the rain keeps coming. I haven't see the sun in days. I remember the kids that were there for me when I needed them the most. Because of them I'd never leave this place. My heart dropped anchor, this is where I'll stay. This is the one place I'll never be alone, and the only place I can call my home. Coming from where my love gets it's start. These gray clouds more then tattooed on my arm. From 15 kids screaming out loud that we want more. We won't back down. We want more. I look at you and see how we fill these rooms. Can't you see that it's ours? Count the numbers, count the hearts. Can't you see that it's ours?"

1 step | forward [12 May 2006|02:29am] recently: i am no longer in looking up goodtimes no regrets stoked on force of chage and other project soon: i will once again start my gym workout intensly less food more runs with julie more swiming with beverly i have to learn how to swim as well and i need to stop gaining wieght i trust only 3 people besides my family and i hold them on a higher level than anyone else ill be here next year later days

1 step | forward [30 Apr 2006|11:07am] lately: looking up force of change and other project in the works summer: tour tour tour sound and fury fest sink with cali fest end of summer slam and new friends and expiriences right now: prctice ipod trying to lose wieght BURRITOS julie movin down wayyyy stoked on that chain reaction and more BEVERLY!!!! I LOVE HER! I NOW KNOW WHO IS THERE AND AND WHO WILL BE THERE PEOPLE CHANGE AND I SUPPORT IT BUT ITS USUALLY FOR THE WORST THATS WHY I TEND TO LET PEOPLE GO LATER DAYS

1 step | forward [07 Apr 2006|11:34am] TOUR TOUR TOUR FOR THE NEXT WEEK I LOVE CALIFORNIA AND CHAMPIONS LAST SHOW IN MAY AND A SUMMER THAT WILL TOP LAST SUMMERS I LOVE BEVERLY JULIE OWNS AND JESSE IS THE RADDEST DUDE AND KEEP AN EAR OUT FOR A NEW BAND LAER DAYS.

3 step | forward [22 Mar 2006|10:19am] so my knee is all fucked again loved btrayed sunday looking up tour april 7th to the 15 th i love my jesse i love my julie i love my BEVERLY stop talking to a few people because i know there are exectly the type of people i cant stand i been realizingi need to change sopmethings about myself i cant critisize others without doin myself first i need more gym busted knee = less gym :\ cant wait for julie to move down here rager and reesh might try and get touchy touchy hhehehe im counting on it love torrance love benji love carlos and AUSTIN OWNS YOUR LIFE oh yeah tina dont post so much i cant keep up :] heheheh love ya

2 step | forward [22 Feb 2006|01:14pm] this weekend! drive gilman dublin drive rivalry insanity julie burritos insanity hopefully courtney someonhe give her a ride um drive back to dublin rage rage rage home and then good clean fun i love my fuckibng life miss everyone stoked on the weekend starbucks and back rubs????

2 step | forward [07 Feb 2006|08:11pm] rivalry two weeks champions last show in may have heart tour in june looking up tour in april i love everyone that i have known this past year i have no regrets and learned from every experience that i was confronted with love the jesse love the julie love the benji most definitly love the the beverly hmmm so im goin to rivalry with chatterbox someone iam still proud to know and laziest dude ever i see you guys there and well fucking rage oh yeah love the justine and jason

5 step | forward [20 Jan 2006|02:55am] so i love theme songs for childhood tv shows i love burrrrrriiiitoooos i love that final fight show at chain i love having an awesome girlfriend i love roadtrips russ is an asshole but i love that guy.....faggot and im gonna love rivalry showcase woooooooooooooooooo oh yeah ask me something

2 step | forward [06 Jan 2006|02:20pm] change of plans so the shows i was gonna go to next week im not gonna go i will be out of town at the best show in the fucking world bane verse have heart guns up in wrcester ny i couldnt be any happier i own at life right now hmm oh yeah im tight :] and rivalry showcase is gonna oooown

1 step | forward [03 Jan 2006|09:07pm] hmmmmmmm bakersfield the 11th hermosa the 12th ventura the 14th diets own i lose and i lose bad im sorry hmm more road trips more austin more gym less carbs more looking up shows more hardcore stage dives sorry for being distant i do this to myself i need to get rid of this habbit "its not like i will never see you agian well hang out just like old friends everything wont be the same but i got my memmories and like i said they still mean something to me, ill miss you when your gone."

forward [29 Dec 2005|11:03am] "there are things i will stand up and fight for there are things i will lay down my life for convictions in my heart, my soul have meshed with id give all the blood that flows through my wrist!"

5 step | forward [26 Dec 2005|06:45pm] i love texting AWESOME people its addicting as well um i gots to loose weight i got to buy a new head i got to jam more more shows less stress im starting to miss people agian good? bad? whos knows whispers of vegas hmmm not sure depends whos driving and rivalry showcase!!!! um listen to have heart miles to go and uniform choice im out

forward [24 Dec 2005|07:52pm] show last night awesome as fuck makes me have alot of pride in southbay hardcore southbay is better than anyone better than jesus anyways um x mas sucks new years with no one and maybe salinas soon? eh maybe not but rivalry and have heart u.s. tour stoked um text me anyone i hate being alone 1 310 467 8587 oh yeah im still straight edge you know who you are.

forward [23 Dec 2005|06:15pm] im done. the end. see you around.

5 step | forward [09 Dec 2005|09:49pm] hahahahah fuck everyone who sucks at life dont do the same shit everyday take a chance take the risk this summer was amazing i regret nothing another year comes prolly same shit as last year rivalry showcase with ben a boston trip seattle trip have heart tour i have to stop being fat but food is good more shows less drama ive been alone alot more time to see things and people through im still sorry for everyone ive ever hurt but im still here "if it means ill stand on my own ,thats the price ill pay" "price ill pay ,for the value, for the truth, the meaning of it all,the worth"

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